Scene outside of school. |
It has been about 12 hours since I saw the breaking news of
another school shooting. When I first heard of it, my mind sort of forced the
image of Columbine High School, Pearl, MS or Jonesboro, AR. These were
locations where high school students shot their classmates. When I heard that
these were elementary kids, my heart sank. When I learned that these were
kindergarten children, I was in disbelief—total denial. My mind could not
comprehend what I had just heard. I remember sitting up in my bed and my mouth
being open. My first thought was how—not why—could someone kill a child? What
type of person could exact that kind of carnage on a 5-year-old?
Think for a moment what life is like for kindergarteners. A
5-year-old is roughly 40 inches tall and between 38 and 45 pounds. This is
their first year of school. Gone are the days when they were fearful of mom
or dad dropping them off at school. Now, they are halfway through the school
year and look forward to each day at school. They wear little book bags that
carry folders of their work: coloring pages, circling oranges, crossing out
apples, lined papers they print the “A-B-Cs”. Papers that have “smiley” faces
and Gold stars on them. They walk everywhere in a line, following their
teachers. They are polite. They are sweet. They are loving. They are young enough
to look at the good in people and not see the bad. They do not look at the
color of their classmates, or the label in their clothes. They have not been
corrupted by society. They are sweet and innocent. How could someone kill a
child?
I can imagine what this morning might have been like in any
of their homes. Climbing up into their chair at the breakfast nook to eat their
breakfast and were glad it was Friday. They might have asked their mom “How
many more days of school?”, then replied by counting the days out on their
fingers and asking their mom “Is it this many?” Or, perhaps one of them asked
what was packed in his lunch making sure mom included some pudding or Go-Gurt. On
the way out the door, stopping to look at the Christmas tree and decorations
reminding them that Santa would soon be coming. Each mom and dad who dropped
their baby off at school had no idea that they would never again see their baby
alive. They would never again be able to hug them. They would never again hear
their laughter. How could someone kill a child?
I can imagine what it was like first thing this morning in
the classroom. The teachers were calling role; telling the class to settle down
and get ready for the first lesson. I can see the teacher passing out papers
and writing on the whiteboard. I can hear laughter. I can hear murmuring
between classmates. Then all goes quiet. Then the silence is broken by the
unmistakable sound of gunfire. The sound of teachers locking the doors and
going through emergency procedures. The sound of screaming. More gunfire. What
did those babies think? How frightened were they when they saw a man
dressed in black carrying firearms? What did they think when they saw the
shooter pull the trigger and shoot a classmate? How fast were their hearts
beating? What did they think when they saw blood splatter as the bullet entered
into that small body? Then the second classmate was shot, then the third, and
so on. Each child slowly realizes that help will not come for them. How many of
them were so frightened they soiled their clothing? What did the last child shot
think? “Please don’t hurt me. MOM…!” How could someone kill a child?
I can only imagine the destruction caused by a 9mm round on
a small child. Firearms by their nature are destructive. They are designed to maim
and kill. The basic operation is simple: a controlled explosion with a directed
force acting on a projectile. The same technology propels us into space, with
the shuttle/orbiter/satellite taking the place of the projectile. Most
everyone has seen the hole a projectile leaves in a paper plate or cardboard
box when shooting in a backyard. This does not illustrate the destructive
nature of firearms. It is not simply a hole. No. Not only does a round tear a
hole in the flesh, but it hits the body with such force, that it destroys tissue,
organs, and bones. Just think of Newton’s Second Law of motion represented by
the equation F=ma from Physics (Force is equal to the mass of an object
multiplied by the object’s acceleration.) A 9mm round with a mass of 124 grains
traveling at 1200 fps, the muzzle kinetic energy is about 405 ft-lbs of force—about
half a ton. This is just what the impact feels like. As the round enters the
body, it causes lacerations and crushing wounds. The round then continues,
puncturing and tearing its way through tissue and bone. The “shock” of the
round creates a temporary “cavity” pushing the organs aside, then quickly
closing as the round passes. The cavity from the “shock wave” causes damage to
nearby tissue, organs, and bones. This is assuming the round remains intact; if
it is a hollow point or one that is frangible (breaks apart), even more damage
is caused. I shudder at what just one round could do to a small 40-pound child.
How could someone kill a child?
Scared children. |
I can only imagine what the crime scene was like; what the
first responders saw when they entered the room. The smell of gunpowder
lingers in the air so strong you can taste it. The smell of blood—it smells
like iron or dirt. Perhaps there was an overbearing smell of vomit, urine, and
feces. No matter how awful and overloaded the smell of the scene, it does not
compare to the sights. Small, lifeless, torn bodies, were strewn across the room.
Some shot in the back while running away. Some slumped over in their desks—perhaps
appearing as if they were taking a nap. Perpetual slumber. This crime scene
will remain with them for the rest of their lives. The responders taking it all
in—trying to remain detached and professional, trying to make sense of this;
trying to bring order to this chaos. How could someone kill a child?
I can only imagine what the holidays will be like for the community
and families affected by this senseless tragedy. The small churches host
funerals instead of performing Christmas musicals. The pastor gives eulogies
over the dead instead of heralding in the birth of another child 2000 years
ago. The little coffins lined up at the front of the church—the children’s wing
empty. The Hanukkah presents that have been opened, but will never be played
with or used. The wrapped presents under the tree that will never be opened. The
houses Santa Claus will not visit this year because the children are not
there. The homes will be silent on Christmas morning because there is no
laughter in their hearts. The parents and family members numb with pain, asking
themselves all manner of questions. What could I have done differently? How
could someone kill a child?
I can imagine in those last moments, there was someone else
in the room—someone the shooter could not see. Someone only the innocent saw. He
was standing there in His robes of white, looking each child in the eye. Giving
them peace and preventing any pain. Telling them, “Come on, let’s go back to my
place”. I find comfort in knowing that those innocent children are now seated
around and even on the lap of Jesus. He is laughing with them…tickling them,
telling them stories about Noah and the Ark, Jonah in the whale, how short
Zacchaeus is, and laughing at him trying to “climb down from that tree”. Yes, I
have no doubt these children are in a better place—a place where there is no
carnage, no destruction, no death. A place where they are experiencing the
lyric “Yes, Jesus loves me” forevermore. Sadly, while their children are in
heaven the parents and family members are in a living hell. They need our
prayers and support.
Sandy Hook Chapel. |
We, parents from around the world, grieve with you the
parents of Newtown, CT. We anguish alongside you at the loss of such, sweet,
innocent lives. Lives that will never see their dreams realized. But know this,
God has promised,
A time is coming where there are no more tears.
A time of comfort is at hand.
A time when peace shall be restored.
A time when joy shall be renewed.
We pray God's promises for you.
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He
will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8